This is....NOW

I can see my life flash me by in a second.

I see nothing. There’s something but it won’t register.

Poof…It was just a dream…and yet it’s not.

My heart beat so fast that it felt it really happening. The whole body was numb in all areas but I knew it was just a dream.

I stood up paced around the room. Then I got a good look at my image in my full-length mirror. Gosh, in a few days I grew old, like those work their asses off to make ends meet.

But I did go that far. I was just here all the time.

Too much time spent on reflections, too much thinking, too much wasted energy for things that didn’t bring me to a new and good place.

Yes, it’s been like this, over and over again and IT MUST BE STOPPED.

I knew what to do and how to do it. Then just do it!

I know the purpose of my every move and even my thoughts, why I needed to think of things. Just to do it!!!

I am in control of my life. No one will tell me to just sit and spend hours thinking and figuring out the solution to my problem.

Everything I was told were true. I didn’t want to accept it, but they were all true, and I can do something about it.

Ok I’m done with the accepting part.

Now, to the solution and the action.

There is no problem if one would see this situation. True, even the normal person will easily deal with this, what more for a person like me.

My heart’s still beating fast…and yes it was not a dream. My life can change in a second and it has been constantly.

I must commit myself to myself, that I will be vigilant with my actions, be patient in my rebirth, and learn to handle things in every situation given.

My words will only be effective when I make it happen.

Even when I say things no negative vibes should or will come out of my mouth…NEVER

I was there already....I just need to get back and continue that new me.

My battle will stop NOW!!!