New Friend

It's been a long time since I went to Quiapo. I missed those Wednesdays when I would have my quiet time. I got so busy and couldn't leave early from the office.

Today my agenda was for something else. I was just buying something for someone, and even thinking of shoe-shopping or check out some accessories.

After buying the main stuff I went straight to the church to say "hi". I just stood, since I knew I won't be that long. Then an old woman caught my attention. She had a small body frame, white hair. She was standing, trying to fix her skirt. She had a plastic bag, which I think she used as her handbag, an umbrella and her "pamaypay". Surprisingly she was clean. Normally when you see a senior who carries a plasticbag full of clothes or tattered bag, they would look dirty and most of the time they smell too.

But this old woman was an exemption. What made me look at her was the fact that her body frame was so small was because her back curled, due to Osteoperosis. I watched her as she was fixing herself. She took her bag and umbrella with her. I imagined how could she sit comfortably when her slouch was so bad. She doesn't look like she's having a hard time with her condition, but still I could not think how she could cope walking in slouched back.

I was ready on my foot that when she would pass me I would discreetly give her money for food. In a way I was nervous as she approaches my way. This would be the first time I would do something like this extravagant over an old person.

As she stood in front of me I called her out and whispered to her. She smiled at me in her sweetest smile. We talked a little. Her name's Purification or Puring. I felt our conversation would take a while so I told her we better sit again.

She lives at the LRT, I think that would below the LRT station. I don't know how she sleeps esp with her back condition. I worry for her esp during rainy season. Her memory's still good, considering she'll turn 81 this Dec 8. She usually stay at the church. She mentions her family but chooses to stay by herself. A lot of people would hand her money, even though she doesn't ask for alms. People would invite her to eat, even stay in their homes, she thanks them but still chooses not be a burden to others. She's clean and smells fresh. She does use the toilet and cleans herself at a paying cr near the place where she stays, and she carries only a plastic bag with some clothes and toothbrush in it.

Merry Christmas

No Matter What we do, Christmas is still the happiest season, Ever!!!

No Choice

My Lola was brought to the hospital this morning, due to fever and other stuff. It was kinda worrying since she's so old already, but thank goodness she's now okay.

I called dad to get more info about lola. And then I had to ask about mommy. The doctor still advises her to have the andiogram procedure, which will cost a lot. What surprising...well not really, was that my dad really took himself out of the responsibilities of raising money. The only thing he said that it would only happen if he wins the lotto. Wow! what an inspiration!!!

I'm worried for their health, but I feel sadness at the same time they just wanted to throw all the responsibilities at us. Maybe they should have taught us that when we we're small so we could have prepared for it early on.

I wish I could bring back a few years of my younger days so I could have saved up more. Or maybe have gone abroad if that was their plan all along, to make us work our butts off.

This just makes me...grrrr

N.R.

I lost my mojo. I think

It seemed that my interest in things are to low. Need to get it back in its high level. I got a lengthy sermon again due to my stupidity...again. It's really frustrating for me, most especially to the person affected.

I better re-think my life....

1. What's my plan for the future? (the very near future)

2. What do I want to be? Do I have a dream? What was/is it?

3. What action plan should I start to get my life in focus?

Damn.

I did it Again....

Today I started the 1st day of my meds. Yeeheeee... I wish I could shout it.

I can say that I've been struggling with my weight for a long time now. 4 years ago I finally got the figure I thought I'd never have, only the reason I got that was not the way I hope I'd have. I did enjoyed being like that for a year or so, thinking my body will keep it for a long time. Wrong. Gradually I got the unwanted weight (and unwanted look at that). I don't want to get sick just to get thin.

I have been throwing clothes that doesn't fit anymore. Wishing I could fit in them again would take a while. So I opted for larger cuts, loose clothes.

I didn't like what I see in the mirror and wanted to get this over with. So today I finally purchased it. I'm positive that I'd be successful here. I feel dizzy though.

Goodluck to me.

Sad...

I'm home now. I haven't slept yet.

I had a long talk with my friend since 3am and I'm glad we had that long talk...about something else.

I couldn't go back to sleep. Lunch was cooked very early.

But the events for the day was unexpected. The topic I sooo hate suddenly was thrown at me, as if I'm the most (inutil) person. And my mom has to be the person to even say that.

I could not hate her too much because of her condition, but this is not different from what she use to be before she got sick. It does hurts hearing that from her. It only confirms that my part in this family is just for comfort purposes. To fill in the responsibilities that was not done (at all).

I was teary-eyed during lunch while mom's seated on the other side of the table. I just bowed down, I couldn't look at her. I'm not even sure if she noticed, but judging from her actions I don't think she even knew.

I don't want to hurt her, or to even say stuff that's disrespectful, but I didn't expect it to hear it that way. She said I should help my sister with all the responsibilities....

Later I'll be going to Glorietta, and I'd see all the families there again, spending their sundays together. I will wish again I'd had the same normal family like theirs. If I had know specifically that my place in this world/our family is to slave myself to work for them I could have gone abroad after college.

Really didn't expect that today...

Never too late for school

Last May 2011 my friend's sister was here in Manila. Her visit became a business proposal as the days went along. I am to help assist on her business plan (with documents and all). Because of this the Bookkeeping course came into picture.

Now, 3-4 months after, every saturday of the month I'm attending the bookkeeping course!!!

My friday gimiks were put on hold for a while - hehehe...I never thought I'd be back in school, and with amount of work we have it's as if I'm actually in regular school.

I'm learning of course (I should be), but I need a lot of practice...a real lot of practice...will tell more soon...

The "Ber" months have started

Time really flies...soooo fast!!!

It's the 'ber' months already and still ssoo much to accomplish. I'm just sorry I never had the time...or should I say I didn't take the time to really sit and journalize my events for the past months.

Speaking of journalize....I've have been attending a saturday class of bookkeeping...since June (or was it July??) imagine me taking a course that involves math 360 degrees?!!! ha-ha

So far I'm learning....though I need a lot of training. Ate gay was good enough to advance me the tuition fee, for upcoming services I'll give her. So scared actually, but hope everything works well.

Later...will tell more.. :)

Bestest Tagaytay Weekend

Never fails to amaze me

The privileged...continues still

Around the last 2 weeks of April became an eventful event (hahaha-talk about reduntant). Anyway, I was just soooo privileged to have spent a week, almost a week since I have been dropping by at the Ascott for several days. I was helping out my friend's sister with some stuff, and I was invited to spend breakfast buffet with her while we're on a meeting. Geez...here we go again, buffet, food, new food (at least some of them) I didn't know what to pick so I ended up eating a few and common stuff.... Told my friend about it and we just laughed about it, how stupid I am when it comes to picking out food.... The next day I was invited again, wow, talk about second chances...And guess what? I did the same thing, only this time I took a little bit of that crunchy bacon...Hahahaha...

But what was nice was my friends and I spent an overnight at the hotel, sort of to baby-sit the room, and for the buffet breakfast of course. I was sooo lucky that my office was just a few minutes walk away. I wasn't able to sleep though but it was all good.

It was really nice there...Wish we can do it again soon.

The privileged...continues

The lobby....The breakfast

The privileged

Evening @ Ascott, with pizza & friends

It's such a Glück Day!!!

I was cleaning up my inbox, that has at least 300+ unread emails...It's such an eyesore going through each any every mail...Some not even opened yet.

I sort of clicked just one email and not even reading the title....Well guess what? I won in a promo I "Liked" from facebook.

Wow!!!! talk about luck...or should I say glück. Hehehe...Just imagine, I even forgot about it. Sometimes you get life's surprises especially when you least expect it.

Earlier this morning I got a message from my friend's sister asking if I want to have breakfast again., when in the first place I was already there yesterday. I was too shy to pig-out the buffet, and just took small portions. And even as I indulged myself on some foods, I still have not tasted the other nice food.

But the highlight of it all....My own Longchamp!!! Weeeeeee ü She handed me her gift yesterday after our brunch. I couldn't get over it, it's soooo nice and cute!!!

So from now on I'll spread glück, no place for hang ups now.

Easter Fever...

I can't find any other picture to greet Happy Easter!!!

First time I spent easter sunday away from home and attended a easter egg hunt, never have I imagined that its a chaos with all those kids. I assisted on the cookie painting my sister's friend was handling. Despite the 3 straight hours of standing it was all good and fun.

And now....2 days after easter....I'm feeling sick...oh please please sickness go away...

Had so much to share for the past days and now they expired...this time I'll make it appoint to open this more often.

For now I'll take a rest, hoping I'd feel better later...So much to do and little time to spare....So chop chop and be well.

Hope mom's doing ok at home

Hoping for the holiest week

It's Good Friday today...

What's is good about this friday? The day when Jesus died for us...Too sentimental? Yes it is...Then what the heck am I doing home? ... Maybe hoping my mom would get the rest she needs and being with her at home would be nice. My dad's been pre-occupied with his 'stuff' at church, too much pre-occupied I should say.

It looks like my effort to be home is not the wise thing at this time. Since my mom got sick, and made her recovery her memory and understanding had lessen, sometimes she just can't understand. My patience is always compromised when I tell her not to work around the house and leave it to me since I'm home already. And now I wish I am not home.

I have to control my temper when it comes to talking to her. I hated my father for treating her like a maid and now I'm doing it, though my reason is for stopping her from doing chores.

Holy Wednesday

It's 2011 Holy week.

I still have work until tomorrow. I never imagined when I was little that holyweek could turn out like this. A little bit energetic compared before and people are still working.

Today turned out okay despite the stress attached to it. First, I havent slept yet, I just remembered just now cause I'm feeling a bit sleepy, and it's only 8:30pm. But will of course take a shower first.

So much to do yet so little time. Wish I could have done a lot more, though I'm pleased with my accomplishment for today.

I was asked to do a letter for this tenant. I did a pretty good job in composing that letter, with minor corrections.

Then last night a part of my electrical outlets was short, so I have no power in some of the outlets. I bought an extension cord for the ref and tv, so now my tv and ref are working fine....I even tidy up a bit the room...I'm loving it.....

Will talk to you soon

2011

Just had my birthday 2 days ago...weeeee

By now my life should have turned into the most admiring stories ever told...Well I guess I'm expecting too much.

Still learning...a lot more...need to do it double time.

But there's one other thing I'm having difficulty with - being gullible. I always fall into the trap, and sometimes it's too late.

I have one question though...who do I believe?

As I have said...I thought I was patient...

It's 2011.

Another chance to start over...Hoping for a clean slate this time.

I'm more positive on achieving this for this year. It's just discipline that I need.