In a flash my life turned around…again.

I’ve been given all kinds of threat, I’ve been scared but it seemed it didn’t get through my skin all those times.

I’m starting over. Just like the weeks before. Same situation, same chances…but this time it much worse.

I’m going to turn my whole world upside down this time. My old tricks didn’t work so I must reconstruct my strategy. I need to polish my act to survive my own self, my own life.

Numb. That’s me right now. I don’t want to contradict my self now, or permit any negative thoughts of what happened. “my own humiliation would depend on how or if I will permit myself to be the old me.”

It has been tainted, and I did that. It seems so different now, coz it is. Not because we’re having conversation doesn’t mean everything’s okay. If I continue to be good, then I might not get watched to everytime.

Time to take action and take responsibility with my life. Or I would end up being in the dumpster.

All these time I thought I'm cured. My bad.