Thursday, November 24, 2011

New Friend

It's been a long time since I went to Quiapo. I missed those Wednesdays when I would have my quiet time. I got so busy and couldn't leave early from the office.

Today my agenda was for something else. I was just buying something for someone, and even thinking of shoe-shopping or check out some accessories.

After buying the main stuff I went straight to the church to say "hi". I just stood, since I knew I won't be that long. Then an old woman caught my attention. She had a small body frame, white hair. She was standing, trying to fix her skirt. She had a plastic bag, which I think she used as her handbag, an umbrella and her "pamaypay". Surprisingly she was clean. Normally when you see a senior who carries a plasticbag full of clothes or tattered bag, they would look dirty and most of the time they smell too.

But this old woman was an exemption. What made me look at her was the fact that her body frame was so small was because her back curled, due to Osteoperosis. I watched her as she was fixing herself. She took her bag and umbrella with her. I imagined how could she sit comfortably when her slouch was so bad. She doesn't look like she's having a hard time with her condition, but still I could not think how she could cope walking in slouched back.

I was ready on my foot that when she would pass me I would discreetly give her money for food. In a way I was nervous as she approaches my way. This would be the first time I would do something like this extravagant over an old person.

As she stood in front of me I called her out and whispered to her. She smiled at me in her sweetest smile. We talked a little. Her name's Purification or Puring. I felt our conversation would take a while so I told her we better sit again.

She lives at the LRT, I think that would below the LRT station. I don't know how she sleeps esp with her back condition. I worry for her esp during rainy season. Her memory's still good, considering she'll turn 81 this Dec 8. She usually stay at the church. She mentions her family but chooses to stay by herself. A lot of people would hand her money, even though she doesn't ask for alms. People would invite her to eat, even stay in their homes, she thanks them but still chooses not be a burden to others. She's clean and smells fresh. She does use the toilet and cleans herself at a paying cr near the place where she stays, and she carries only a plastic bag with some clothes and toothbrush in it.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Merry Christmas

No Matter What we do, Christmas is still the happiest season, Ever!!!

No Choice

My Lola was brought to the hospital this morning, due to fever and other stuff. It was kinda worrying since she's so old already, but thank goodness she's now okay.

I called dad to get more info about lola. And then I had to ask about mommy. The doctor still advises her to have the andiogram procedure, which will cost a lot. What surprising...well not really, was that my dad really took himself out of the responsibilities of raising money. The only thing he said that it would only happen if he wins the lotto. Wow! what an inspiration!!!

I'm worried for their health, but I feel sadness at the same time they just wanted to throw all the responsibilities at us. Maybe they should have taught us that when we we're small so we could have prepared for it early on.

I wish I could bring back a few years of my younger days so I could have saved up more. Or maybe have gone abroad if that was their plan all along, to make us work our butts off.

This just makes me...grrrr


Thursday, November 3, 2011

N.R.

I lost my mojo. I think

It seemed that my interest in things are to low. Need to get it back in its high level. I got a lengthy sermon again due to my stupidity...again. It's really frustrating for me, most especially to the person affected.

I better re-think my life....

1. What's my plan for the future? (the very near future)
2. What do I want to be? Do I have a dream? What was/is it?
3. What action plan should I start to get my life in focus?

Damn.

I did it Again....

Today I started the 1st day of my meds. Yeeheeee... I wish I could shout it.

I can say that I've been struggling with my weight for a long time now. 4 years ago I finally got the figure I thought I'd never have, only the reason I got that was not the way I hope I'd have. I did enjoyed being like that for a year or so, thinking my body will keep it for a long time. Wrong. Gradually I got the unwanted weight (and unwanted look at that). I don't want to get sick just to get thin.

I have been throwing clothes that doesn't fit anymore. Wishing I could fit in them again would take a while. So I opted for larger cuts, loose clothes.

I didn't like what I see in the mirror and wanted to get this over with. So today I finally purchased it. I'm positive that I'd be successful here. I feel dizzy though.

Goodluck to me.