New Year! New Beautiful Me 🎉 12/31/15

It's that time again of the year.... That you wait soooo long for and yet with just a blink of an eye, it's here 

(Just discovered @6:16am of Jan 1, 2017 I was not able to post this ! Wooow 😵)

Wake up calls

It's 12:31am... Chinese Gen ICU... Waiting area...

Mom is sent back to the ICU after 5 years from her 1st stroke attack 😔... It happened around 4pm today when dad called to say he's bringing mom to the ER for what seem to be a stroke attack. I can't believe that just a few minutes before that dad said they were getting ready for church 😞.  I was about to leave, myself, for a get together at QC, good thing I have not left yet.

It was odd that I'm worried but wasn't feeling nervous. We just wish we'd knew what caused her attack.

The frustrating part was waiting for them. I got to the ER first because they were stuck in traffic. It was worrying because who knows how long mom can hold onto herself......finally they arrived and mom was like paralyzed on one side, her right arm is folded, and fingers into fist, she couldn't walk so she was carried to the bed. It took her a while in the ER, she still wasn't talking but her feet were responding somehow... Then they decided to admit her to the ICU to observe her first.

It all coming back again.... And this time you only pray that she recovers like the 1st time. My emotions now are at a plateau. I'm worried but no external demonstration. But one thing is for sure, I wish to still spend time with mommy and her to get well.

We're home now

How you loved being a king here, remember? It's a Saturday, our usual time to visit mom and dad and buddy. But right now the house is a mess, we're all sleeping in the living room hahaha. And I'm sure you'll play hide and seek with me, with all the boxes scattered in the other room...oh and you'll surely love mom and dad's room, it's now tiled :)

The kitchen looks safe too, so you can roam around there with lesser roaches there.

Friendship and I went to cartimar to maybe look around, but don't worry no one found me yet. Not sure sometimes if I'm worth to be found. I know in my heart your my number one! Wishing your sleeping with me here now, they've got the aircon on, I know you will love it.

Missing you always 

Goodbye, Silver

I told my friend it will be hard to move around knowing I won't bump into Silver anymore.

I brought him to the Vet yesterday because I saw him swaying whenever he tries to move and relax o the floor. Come to think of it he was just trying to be near me because he would sit or lay every time I would change location. He still wasn't eating or drinking despite the meds he was taking. I tried different food for him to even have a small bite of something, but none was working, I knew I had to look for something else that he'd like. Little did I know that deep inside he was really hurting. He would go to his water bowl, stares at it for a while then rests his chin on the edge of the bowl but not drink. He would still meow, although I know he was just making an effort just to talk to me.... On Saturday morning he even woke me up by jumping on the bed waking me up. 

I guess he really did love me after all. I have so many stories about him, but for sure I'll miss his talkative mouth every single day. I Love You Silver!!!!

Caregiver

It's 6:53am, Sunday, Aug 9... It could have been more days back and I hadn't noticed Silver's ear turning yellow. He's sick, we went to the Vet yesterday and he says it's curable, and hoping his medicine will help him improve his appetite with food and water.

A few months back, almost 1 year ago I said I'd be more active here, documenting my everyday, especially my activities with Silver. Well, now here I am, but all his antics would be stories until he gets well and be back to his sweet self again.

His body was shrinking, I've been noticing it. When I got back last Sunday i noticed he didn't touch his food (I stayed overnight at my mom's house the night before) ....(oh my, just in...7:03am...he went to his water bowl and went for a few drink 😘..and went back under my bed...Bless you my Baby) thank you Lord Jesus,Mama Mary, St Joseph! .... Going back, and he was drinking from the pail in the bathroom. This went on until Friday. I tried hand-feeding him his dry food, he nibble few pellets, only eating what he liked. Then Wednesday evening was the only time he voluntarily got up and ate his food. Thursday was not a good thing. Friday evening I bought wet food, and sampled himself of Shiba, but that's it. 

Then yesterday I just couldn't bear seeing him just laying on the floor, not meowing when I'm about to enter the room, or not brushing beside my legs, or blocking the computer when I'm working... What I mostly couldn't bear is seeing him not eat and drink, that means he's not using the litter box at all! 

He went again for his 2nd sip of water (I got it on video 😄) and tasted his food for a licks (need to work on that today) ....I already gave him his antibiotics and syrup for this morning....Hope before our 2nd syrup intake today he'd ate too 😊 (10:55am)

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The coffee that never was...then came bottles of beer

Yes, the coffee that never was....that's what happened last Sunday, I got cancelled! Of courses should I ask? No way! .... I was just so depressed after that and so my work became a mess, I was mess, being disappointed for no apparent reason.

So I didn't messaged him for days, and on the 3rd day I tried. His words sounded like he didn't want to be bothered, so I got paranoid and stopped sending messages.

Now.... This is a long weekend for everyone (it was Labor Days yesterday and Manny's fight) hehe. Anyway, yesterday I was just preparing my stuff to bring home (to lessen my stuff on sat), when I got a viber from him. I was shocked!!! And excited of course. The usual hi-how are you stuff...then came the "do you have plans later "? 😍 hahaha....I didn't know if I should make pakipot or what? So I answered in my most civilized-behaved response....so it was 9pm somewhere ortigas...

I was almost on time but had no luck getting a cab, so when he got to our meeting place he suggested to just pick me up...😉 embarrassing hahaha

I was soo kilig but was trying to be cool...hahaha I don't know if it showed the whole time 😜. We had a few drinks, him -Jack Coke, me-Pale...we were done by 2am and he brought me home.

We just talked random old stuff, and from what I gathered, now he's not into looking or considering, and zero on the sexual aspect (in a respectful way) so after last night I don't know if I was too obvious that i liked him or did he liked me and enjoyed our time... Oh well it's still too early for that... But too bad for me, I already dreamt of him...wahhhh pathetic...

I hope there could become a next meet up....feeling hopeful 😍

Social life ?

I could it sleep. I think it was 5 am something when I finally stood up.

Good morning 😄 It's a Sunday and I'm hoping I could enjoy the day early before the busy week comes.

So what's up with me? Here trying to live up to a promise I made to write in my blog, which I think I have messed up from my netbook hahaha. I had a lot of stuff to tell then I ended up trying to fix my account. Good thing I had it here in my mini iPad...so here I am hahaha

I've been doing a lot of thinking again this weekend, unnecessary stuff I should not be worrying about. 

Since I've been cramped up with work I thought to finally gave in to shoao's suggestion, haha, to try the social media for new friends. I tried one and another trying to check what's up with those apps. I finally swiped one guy who just described himself as 'straight ', and the pictures were cute hahaha, and he's not young 😄....

We chatted through text, talked once, never flirted, and I accidentally invited him first for coffee later. He looked nice, has a good job, plus 1 teenage son and separated. I wasn't feeling that he could like me, I usually initiate good mornings or hi's. I already told Lauren about him, even saw the pictures. She said I should wait for him to make the move.... I know I'm 'alright' as a person, but I guess I don't feel it. 

What could be wrong with me?? I'm always told that it's how I carry myself...ok fine, I'm confident with myself, but its still not attracting the right people....tsk tsk... What could it be?

Later, I'm hoping he would remember, 9:30pm for coffee, talk about me being desperate 😞 ... Let's see what will happen, when it happens 😊